Actually really sorry. I can think of the first handful of things I should never have done because it hurt somebody and at least a handful of amazing people I lost because I was cray cray and hypo manic years ago. Even though it was years ago I still regret it. Why has it come up now? I don’t know. Is it still relevant? I have no clue. I really don’t want to bring it up or ask if I hurt someone. It is painful.
I feel that I shouldn’t blame what I did on the illness. But it gives me an explanation for why I reacted so extremely (Let’s face it, I would have gotten drunk, confronted people and been angry anyway). It doesn’t give me a solution or a way out of my shame though.
Over and out.